Category Archives: Personal Reflections

SWLC 2015 – Part 2 – Love

Love. That seems to be a running theme for me these days. Unconditional love. Being love. Giving love. Seeing the world through love. Sending love. Sharing love. Loving through compassion. *Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is

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Reflections of 2014

Each year during the last of December, I spend a lot of time reflecting on the passing year and thinking about what I want for life in the coming year. This year that process seems much bigger than ever before. When I did this last Christmas, I had no idea what 2014 was going to

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Missing Lady Beth

The first time I met Lady Beth, I was both excited and a little bit nervous. Justin had told me lots of stories about her, I had talked with her on the phone and via email, and I knew this was a woman I would love. She was one of the most important female figures

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What ifs and regrets

The few weeks since Justin passed have been a roller coaster of emotion. I have received the kink items that I requested from one source, and I have received his wedding ring, collar, boots, and jacket from his dad. They are all here, in the closet or on my dresser. I feel more at peace

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Just Not Today

It’s been two weeks since Justin passed away. Three weeks since we last talked via email and text the night of the event that sent him to the hospital. There has been turmoil and even some ugliness involved that I am beginning to let go of. It’s funny the difference between people who were close

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Peace

I am blessed to have a Tribe that loves me. The question I keep getting is, “What can I do for you?”. The reality is that there is nothing I need other than time. The one thing I want, the one thing I’ve wanted for a very long time, no one can get for me.

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I Love You..

Some people process by talking. Others process by going inward. I do a little of both of those, but I mostly process after going inward by writing. I’m still processing and will for a long time to come, I think. And so tonight, I am writing. Both to process and to inform. This is not

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My Dance

Although I’ve had a couple of short, fun, play-type situations in the last two years, it’s been just over two years since I’ve had a full scene. When I played prior to that, it was typically pretty heavy, a bit of edge play, usually there was blood, always there was heavy impact, lots of whip

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